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Friday, November 18, 2005

9:35AM - Not where I want to be.

It is a bit of a trip on a curb day today and really not at all sure why.

Not wanting to be here, at work, at home, in San Diego period. I need to get out for a minute. I think after the holidays I am going to take a trip. No where too far...a weekend drive maybe. Up the coast...into Arizona...maybe even Nevada. Something to help get rid of the restlessness that feels like it will never leave. Need to go alone too...spend some time with just me.

Thanksgiving is next week...going to need to put on the everything is wonderful face and brave the firing sqaud.

Neon...not helping with the mood. Torturing myself with the NY state of mind playlist...as if it will some how make the feeling of not being there less consuming.

Current mood: discontent
Current music: Comfortable-John Mayer

Thursday, November 17, 2005

2:49PM - On this day 39 years ago, God shone his light down and gave a gift to the musical world.

If he were still alive, today would be Jeff Buckley's 39th birthday. On so many levels does that make me sad.
I have spent the entire day spoiling my ears with nothing but his music...he makes me happy. He makes me dream of a life I never thought I wanted.
Even so, I feel restless and lonely and lost.
In 13 months that feeling will go away.

Current mood: restless
Current music: Mojo Pin-Jeff Buckley

Sunday, January 23, 2005

3:06PM - There's no place like home...

oh hey, which is where I AM!!! AHAHAHAHAHA!!! Bitches.

Current mood: sleepy
Current music: Ocean Breathes Salty

Monday, January 17, 2005

4:25PM - I'm coming home!!!!

Okay okay okay, I am so fucking lame, it has been like two weeks since I have updated but I am changing that right now. Lots has happened, babies, possible new jobs, I am coming home. So much to do so little time to talk about it. I will write more in a few days. Tomorrow when I have more time and don't have Caitlin UP MY ASS trying to get me to create her a new journal.

Current mood: annoyed
Current music: Clarity

Saturday, January 1, 2005

12:45PM - HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!!!!

2005...wow, can you believe it???

Anywho, Ali McBeale Street is still here whiche makes 2005 for sure the BEST year ever...a fabulous way to start it off!!

Must work today...but will play tonight.

Until next time...

Current mood: bouncy
Current music: I Will Follow-U2

Tuesday, December 28, 2004

5:58PM - Ali B. Hewson-Levine is here!!!!!!!!

Woohoo!! Thats about all that matters at the moment, that and there are like 15 people in the house right now driving me insane. All good...going to see Closer tonight...so excited. Cannot wait. 3

Ali is here...it is so great to simply have her presence in the house...makes me feel content and happy.

Current mood: content
Current music: Sleep with the lights on

Monday, December 27, 2004

7:53PM - The voices...

that I thought were driving me crazy and were in my head, really belong to my cousins and their friends and my aunt and her boyfriend. I feel like there is this buzzing in the house at ALL times...I want to listen to John right now and bask in the glow that is his voice, yet I do not want to piss off Sabrina so that is out of the question. I will in the morning when it is time to clean.

Ali will be here in 18 hours!! Woohoo for me and she. Sushi will commence tomorrow.

Current mood: aggravated
Current music: John in my head...Only Heart

Sunday, December 26, 2004

9:52AM - We've got tonight, who needs tomorrow...

I do dammit!! My Al will be here in two days and if tomorrow never comes then Tuesday will never come!! Can't have that.

Must work today in the redneck grocery store.

Still white and icy...hell it is never going to thaw. Was nice for a minute now is simply annoying.

Whats with you, yesterday you're fine and today you're like the chinese guy from the karate kid. Whats with you today?

Whats with today today?

Current mood: flirty
Current music: Bob Segar-Against the Wind

Saturday, December 25, 2004

10:18PM - Me again...

My last entry was boring as hell...I was preoccupied I must admit. Now I am more focused. Only slightly more. I have Shrek in one ear and Norah in the other...it is hard to concentrate on ANYTHING at the moment. I must work tomorrow, I have discovered that I am smarter than 95% of both the patrons and co-workers at Schucks. Not trying to be pretentious or anything simply truthful. Its sad I know but very true, I hate it. It works for now, okay I lied when I said I was more focused. It isn't working right now...I am trying but I can't do it. I must sleep now and prepare myself for the day tomorrow. It will be slowing being "God's day" and all. I am in the bible belt for goodness sakes.

Merry Christmakah to all and happy birthday to Jim and to all a groovy sexified night.

2 days and 15 hours till I see Maroon 6.

Current mood: nostalgic
Current music: Memories of mandolins and donuts too hot to touch...

9:53PM - Christmas in Missawappi...

Christmas evening with Shrek and Fiona. It has been a wonderful day, up since 4:30, lots of coffee, presents and food. Books, clothes, movies, no music though. First time since hell I don't know I was three I didn't get music. Oh wait...Josh got me Elvis Presley's Blue Christmas. Aint that some shit? Heehee Once a year I will jam...thats it. ONLY ONE TIME!!. I only cried a little today, it was a lot happier and better than I expected it to be. And it was WHITE!! Not that I have anything against the other colors but it was WHITE!! My very first EVER white Christmas. Wait till NYC, there will be white Christmas' every year dammit. Today was Jim's 58th birthday...he is getting up in years I tell you. It was good though, everything was great.

Only 3 days till my Ali is here...well more like 2 and a couple few hours. WOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!! I am so onsighted. It will bamtastic dammit!!

Time to finish the movie and sleep...more tomorrow.

Current mood: complacent
Current music: Norah Jones-Come Away With Me

Thursday, December 23, 2004

7:12AM - SNOWDAY!!!

It snowed last night at my house and it is so beautimus I can't even splain it. Its colder than a bitch outside and the "snow" on the ground is harder than the ice on a hockey rink but it looks pretty from the living room couch. Especially with John singing to me on TV something 'bout kids.

Only three days till Christmas and five days till Ali McBealStreet is here.

Today we work, tomorrow we bake, and Saturday we cry.

Augh...country music is my kryptonite.

Current mood: awake
Current music: some horrible country shit

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

1:50AM - Insomniac theater...

okay not really but thats sure what it feels like. It is almost 2AM and I am sitting here, watching a moving on the WE network about a chubby girl who gets a "makeover" and gets the hunky catalog designer to fall in love with her. This is my life. So I decided to hop on the net and check some things out. Looked at apartments, even though currently I cannot afford one, looked at cars, even though currently I cannot afford one, and looked at my options for college in the summer. I am thinking communications/public relations. I could be good at that. And the classes look interesting enough to keep me going for two years. Or hopefully a year and a half, I want to bust my ass and finish early. OH...did I mention one of the guys the chubby girl dates is whats his face who played Rex Manning in Empire Records? True story I promise.

Today is Weds, 3 days till Christmas and 6 days till Bono's Godbabies mama gets here. WOOHOO!!!
Ooh...Rex Manning and the chubby girl are about to get it on!! Rock on chubby girl! Heehee

Must try to sleep now...can't garuantee anything but I am going to try.

Love and smooches to all who read this!

Current mood: anxious
Current music: Cheesy WE movie music

Tuesday, December 21, 2004

2:37PM - I believe my life is gonna see the love I gave returned to me...

Today is one of those days, one of those ones where everyone and everything around you seems to irritate you...especially when all you want to really do is sit there and listen to your music. It is time for work...don't want to go.

Only 7 days till the Al is here. Can't wait.

Bad entry...better one tomorrow.

Current mood: irritated
Current music: Wheel

Monday, December 20, 2004

8:46AM - 8 days...

In 8 entirely too long days one Miss Ali B. Hewson-Levine will be here in chilly ass Missawappi. I am so excited I feel like I am going to burst out of my damn skin. There will be music and sushi, and John and the boys and the Godfathers, and late nights with coffee and fudge bars. It will be BAMTASTIC! It is 5 days till Christmas and doesn't feel like it at all...I wonder why that is.

Current mood: anxious
Current music: Split Screen Sadness

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